If I get asked “What’s after Uni?” again, I’ll die

Alrighty here we are. Its that time to figure out what I actually want to do.

Help.

I don't know what i want to do

I don't know what to do so much, that I can't narrow it down but i've decoded a good place to start is to make a list of my likes and dislikes and then go from there.

Likes:

• Acting

• Writing

• Content creation

• Talking

• Music

• Interacting with others

• Musicals and theatre

• Karaoke

• Trivia

• Carbonara

• Dogs

• Glee

• Reality TV

• Bananagrams

• Party buses

• Long Island Iced Teas

• Ariana Grandes discography

• Watching recipes on TikTok and then never creating them

• Mini golf

• Dance workouts at home

• Bottomless brunches and dinners

• Drag queens

• Dancing on a Saturday night

• Screenwriting

• Collaborating with others

• Event planning

• Mini dresses

• Performing

Dislikes

• Numbers

• Excel speadsheet

• Arts and Crafts

• Analysing

• Hardcore technology

• Confrontation

• Cooking

• Running

• Going anywhere without my headphones

• Cleaning

• The gym

• Heights

• Heavy doof doof music

• Inconsiderate people

• Mouth noises (Misophonia)

• ASMR

• Vague instructions

• High entry fees

• Grocery shopping with other people. 

• People speaking for me

• Horror movies

• Sunburn

• Deep water

• Angry people

• Bugs

• The smell and taste of honey

• People thinking I can have two conversations at once while im on the phone

Okay I've got my list. Now what do i do with it? I have sat here in silence for 15 minutes because I don't know the answer. I don't know what to write next.

Looking at the list I know I can block out jobs in data analysis, police officer, and beekeeper

but knowing what I don't want to do isn't the problem. It's what I want to do.

I would love to do the blog and my youtube channel full time however there are some issues. First of all, i'm not overly consistent, however I feel with uni coming to an end, I can change that. The amount of drafts I have you wouldn't believe! I always have something to write about and I don't know what's holding me back. As for my Youtube channel, my god I just need to do it. My stupid laptop and camera make editing so difficult and I lose momentum. I think i'll get a new one of both. I need a camera that automatically saves videos and photos to my phone or something or just a really easy camera in general. If anyone has any suggestions I am all ears!

Okay this sounds really stupid but i'll say it anyway. I have seen on my TikTok feed so many posts about people doing affiliate marketing and dropshipping and swearing by it. I gave it a go and I ended up losing money rather than gaining it. I still don't know if I fell for a scam or if I was just doing it wrong. I really want to someone to sit down with me and properly show me how its done. People are claiming they made 6 figures from it and yes, while money isn't everything, it sure helps. So could this be a potential career? I don't think so but it could be a cool side hustle. I don't want it to be my lifes work but it's something to think about. Thinking about it, I may have written about this on a different post? I don't know but it still applies i guess.

I digress...what will I make my career?

Every conversation I have at uni now goes like this:

"What are you studying?"

"Bachelor of arts with a major in performing arts"

"Oh cool what are you going to do with that?"

"Not sure yet"

"That's okay you've got time"

I am so tired of it. I am running out of time and I am getting heart palpitations just thinking about it.

Please tell me someone can relate. That someone is in the same boat as me.

I thought writing about it on here would give me some perspective and I hate to sound like a negative nelly, but it just hasn't. I suppose i'll just keep job hunting and see if something pops up i'm interested in.

Sez